The last three months there has been a LOT of potentially emotional stuff (Loss-related anniversaries, birthdays etc etc etc) I had one especially sad day smack-dab between our estranged son's birthday and my what would have been my parents' 50th wedding anniversary ... and aside from that I'd say I'm doing VERY well. (Thank God!!!!)
I've noticed as my anxiety has decreased markedly... more memories have been surfacing... more evidences of exactly how unwell our children were just before their conjoined meltdown.
I'm not overwhelmed by it... It is with a calm knowing they are... and have been very ill. Our adopted children are behaving EXACTLY as the symptoms list of their mental illness describes they might.
I realize with a little help from my RADparenting friends it is not personal.
I'm so very grateful for the various communities of Parenting RAD that let me know on so very many different levels I am not alone in my experiences.
I've been singing this song...
There has been a LOT of potentially emotional stuff (Loss-related anniversaries, birthdays etc etc etc)I had one really sad day... and aside from that I'd say I'm doing VERY well. (Thank God!!!!)
I've notices as my anxiety has decreased markedly... memories have been surfacing... I've been remembering more very specific evidences (seen and understood more clearly via the miracle of hindsight) that keep exactly how unwell our children were just before their conjoined meltdown.
I'm not overwhelmed by it... It is with a calm knowing they are... and have been very ill. It is not personal.
I'm so very grateful for the various communities of Parenting RAD that let me know on so very many different levels I am not alone in my experiences.
I've been singing this song...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwONvf6k_-Y
I'm grateful to know I'm not alone... I'm grateful the Lord is with me... and I'm especially grateful God has connected me with other parents who love their RAD kids, despite having been beaten and battered by their beloved children's illness.
Together we're trying to figure out what's best for our RADkids, our nonRADs and ourselves.
I've noticed as my anxiety has decreased markedly... more memories have been surfacing... more evidences of exactly how unwell our children were just before their conjoined meltdown.
I'm not overwhelmed by it... It is with a calm knowing they are... and have been very ill. Our adopted children are behaving EXACTLY as the symptoms list of their mental illness describes they might.
I realize with a little help from my RADparenting friends it is not personal.
I'm so very grateful for the various communities of Parenting RAD that let me know on so very many different levels I am not alone in my experiences.
I've been singing this song...
There has been a LOT of potentially emotional stuff (Loss-related anniversaries, birthdays etc etc etc)I had one really sad day... and aside from that I'd say I'm doing VERY well. (Thank God!!!!)
I've notices as my anxiety has decreased markedly... memories have been surfacing... I've been remembering more very specific evidences (seen and understood more clearly via the miracle of hindsight) that keep exactly how unwell our children were just before their conjoined meltdown.
I'm not overwhelmed by it... It is with a calm knowing they are... and have been very ill. It is not personal.
I'm so very grateful for the various communities of Parenting RAD that let me know on so very many different levels I am not alone in my experiences.
I've been singing this song...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=MwONvf6k_-Y
I'm grateful to know I'm not alone... I'm grateful the Lord is with me... and I'm especially grateful God has connected me with other parents who love their RAD kids, despite having been beaten and battered by their beloved children's illness.
Together we're trying to figure out what's best for our RADkids, our nonRADs and ourselves.
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{{{Hugs}}}
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